bathically, suicide. i sorta wanted to challenge myself. c whether i can survive without going online for 1 whole week not. haha then the seeds of temptation bathically germinated and poof, i became cococrunch. still got 6papers. pressure? bit i guess. anyway why'm i blogging here? i guess its coz i dont really want my thoughts made known to public? watever lah. im hungry. and well i cant feel much motivation to work. i mean, like, how to make myself study when im still so confused? if i do manage to get into that jc, would u acknowledge me? maybe u'd go 'eeyer' and shun me coz im 'not from this, that'. in a way i feel inferior. i dont mind saying. however, i still have to b strong dont i? i mean, i cant just let 1 person wreck my life over the slightest troubles. and i dare to say that all these thoughts r stuff i think too much abt. maybe u dont feel that way. maybe im abit too paranoid. watever. and i c alot of couples around me. they so happy. then i just laugh at myself for my sorry state, having only runescape as my best friend. everything seems distant. i know i have to pick myself up, myself. who else can help me? i wont say that no1 cares abt me though. im sure there're people around me who would. i have confidence in them. maybe im deluding myself, maybe they're just cheating me of my feelings, but nvm. i think it'd b very unfair of me to say that no 1 cares abt me if even 1person cares. not giving that person due recognition ya? cheers. one day, maybe u'd grow to like me. im waiting for that i guess. that day better come soon. my energy is nearly spent. there's just so much(little) 1 can do. i cant give in now. im hungry. ah. cheers then. till then, then.